Thursday, March 20, 2008
It's been a long time since I've blogged, I think that's obvious enough. Sitting here on my computer, I can hear my neighbour's kids singing along to the radio 5 hours a day. With that level of personal experience, I think it's safe to say I'm pretty much an expert on "Music that attracts autistic kids". From my point of view, autistic people listen to things like Butterfly("Aye ya yi yay, I'm a little butterfly, green black and blue, make up colours in the sky"), Tarzan and Jane ("Oh yo yo yo yo eh, I am Jane and I love to ride an elephant"). Cool and decent music, the likes of Rick Astley are quickly skipped over. I think that in time, he'll be listening to Hip Hop and RnB as well. I thought it says alot about people and their clubbing habits as well, but I shan't go there.
Should be going to quite a few concerts, I think it's pretty exciting. Friday, Dre's gonna bring me on a musical journey about things I've absolutely no clue about, ie the local music scene. I'd be the first to admit that I'm a total nuthead on the local music scene, even though I tried(unsuccessfully) to be a part of it. I think he's bringing me to Home Club after that for another gig or concert or whatever they call it. Man, I miss being hip and cool, at least then I knew the terms I had to use. I'll also be going for Queen: The Musical with Parveen. Think I should be stocking up on Queen music just to make sure I know what the fuck's going on. How exciting, being able to go for a musical I wanted to go for, and with someone I've been wanting to meet up with for quite some time.
It's been quite a busy period for me, and while most things have died down a little bit, my exams are still around the corner. I think it's times like these that I feel like Superman deep down inside, with people close to me serving to hinder instead of encourage. Superman saved the world alone, didn't he? More often than not, he was the one who had to save Lois Lane from the jaws of doom. I think the same can be said for Spiderman or any other superhero around. Well, Batman never had a girl he had to save, but he had a little boy in tights running around with him so that's a little bit sketchy over there. Anyways, I suppose it's hard for people to understand the precarious situation I'm in, having to juggle RT, IPPT, Japanese lessons, normal lessons etc etc etc etc etc etc etc etc. Bring in the resolutions to quite smoking and wanking and you've got a man who's on edge all the time. But of course, I have to get the blame for things I've no part of as well, like my mum having a bad day at work and many other stuff. Lovely, just lovely. I think I'll just stay the fuck away from potentially volatile situations, since I'll get the blame for it anyway, I think it's best to stay as far away from it as possible. So if I do disappear from your sights, chances are you made me do it.
Just a few updates, I passed my IPPT(NAFA test), so that means I won't have to go for Remedial Training(RT) anymore. I'm definitely gonna fail my Japanese test, that's no surprise considering what happened the day before it. Failing this test means that I've no chance of progressing up the class, I wonder what's gonna happen at the end of this term.
I can't wait for my exams to be done, and before you ask, I'm not going to church on Good Friday.
I'm really digging old music now, both local and foreign. Led Zep, Queen, Rolling Stones, Clapton. Stoned Revivals' Goodil from the 12 Storeys OST is the song of the moment, even though their moment arrived a decade ago. I can listen to it on loop for the whole fucking day, kinda like how my autistic neighbour listens to Tarzan and Jane all day. Man, people around me probably think i'm a retard too. Sheesh, what do I mean by "probably"?
Jean - Sorry I didn't link you. I suppose you can't blame me if you actually come to this blog more than I do. Provide me the link on MSN, and I'll link you.
davvvvvvvid
Thursday, February 07, 2008
My apologies for this long overdue update. There hasn't been much to update these days, because everything's pretty much stagnant, and I figured you guys don't wanna hear about me bitching about my upcoming exams.
Anyways, just two resolutions this year. No smoking, no wanking. The first has been a success so far, and I've overcome the temptation of drinking and smoking simultaneously. So far, I've lasted close to two months, I guess. It really is a statement that the smoking isn't getting to me very much when I've forgotten the date on which I last smoked. I figured that smoking wouldn't just affect me, but it'd affect my kids in future so I stopped. Besides, it wasn't doing much for me that I couldn't already do myself. Then again, if I were to lead a lone lifestyle, without any wife or kids, it'd be no issue at all. Ah yes, the money would still be an issue, of course. Everyone knows I freeload cigarettes off people, but I guess pride, or lack thereof, got to me eventually.
The second seems kinda impossible to overcome though, but for fear of making you guys gag, I shan't go into details.
My next few months'll be pretty much packed, so unless you're gonna come right to my doorstep, meeting up'll be impossible. I've got Japanese classes, irregular lectures, fucking goddamn Remedial Training(since I failed my IPPT) and exams coming up. 'tis all good though, since I've cut down on my gaming. So I guess most of my time'll be spent on the books.
Last night was my grandma's first death anniversary. How time flies.
Update on the guys:
-Sean's still an annoying prick, forcing me to down shots 3 minutes into a party, and tempting me to smoke. He annoys me and pisses me off to no end, but I've realised that I can't stay angry with him for long so I've concluded that he really is my younger brother. It only makes sense that way.
-Been bumping into Black these days, and I think I've come to realise that people shouldn't be condemned for just one single act. I'm not saying that he needs my forgiveness or anything like that, but it's just so awesome seeing him these days. I kinda miss him.
-Jon's disappeared almost completely. I hope he and Julie are doing well.
-Toad's dating this girl now. This same girl, Alvina, borrowed 70 dollars from me 3 years ago, and eventually only returned 20 bucks. I got so fed up with chasing her for the money that I told her to forget about the debt. I hope they're happy with each other, they seem to complement each other's personalities.
-Bumped into Andrew. Same old, same old. Prob'll propose a meet-up which'll eventually amount to nothing in the end.
So that's about it for the guys. I miss the times when all of us would hang out together, without a care in the world. But I've realised that things which are detrimental to you, should eventually be left behind, regardless of how enjoyable they might be to you. Must be the reason why I've managed to stay off smoking for a while, because I've simply stopped meeting those who offer me cigarettes. At least hanging out with Zhijian isn't so bad, because if I tell him I'm trying to quit, he'll refuse to give me a stick even if I ask for one. The others, on the other hand, just seem to need a smoking partner.
I hope you guys are doing great. Happy new year to you folks. Cheers.
davvvvvvvid
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous OneSpontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones will all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed..!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying.
davvvvvvvid
Sunday, December 23, 2007
It's Christmas time, and I finally got down to pondering about what exactly Christmas meant to me. For the last few years, Christmas was never about the birth of Christ or mankind's salvation. All it was about was dressing up to my finest, going to midnight mass on Christmas' Eve, receiving many mass-made identical cards and candy, getting a few personalised Christmas presents from people who actually cared enough to bother shopping for a present, hanging out with "friends" and ultimately it ends up with everyone getting drunk.
In retrospect, I suppose I do regret having that sorta mentality, because it sure as hell seems fucked up now. If Christ's birth meant anything to me, I think I would've done much more meaningful stuff, other than just hang out with my "friends" and get drunk. I suppose Andre's little campaign of bringing Christmas to people who don't celebrate Christmas seems quite decent.
For me now, Christmas is just a holiday that I'll spend with Eug.
And I suppose I owe Eug an apology. Everything I've written here seems terribly negative towards her. Before my birthday, I thought Eugenia was organising an exclusive "thing" for the both of us. It made me very disheartened that Eugenia was gunning for such an exclusive relationship, with no part for my friends whatsoever.
But in the end, Eugenia gave me exactly what I wanted. A drinking, smoking session with my friends with little or no costs. And the exclusive getaway, as well. And she's making an effort to patch things up with Parveen, so much so that she even invited Parveen to my void deck party.
I suppose Santa Allah Jesus Lucifer Christ does exist after all.
davvvvvvvid
Sunday, December 16, 2007
All I want for my birthday, Christmas and New Year is for me to drink, smoke and get so drunk I don't remember anything and yet not have a hangover the next day.
Oh, and for Eugenia not to hate Parveen. But I guess even Mr Santa Allah Lucifer Christ won't be able to do that.
Funny, the one year I decide not to put on a facade and fit in with people, the one year I find myself without any plans. I just want to be with my close friends on those days, people like Dre, Zhijian, Chris and Parveen. Can't always get what we want, though.
I think that next year, I'll start living by the motto of "I answer to no one, but myself." I find that to find a fucking goddamn reason for every litte action I do is too strenous on my little brain, so I'm not gonna answer to anyone from now onwards. I'll do what I want, when I want, how I want. Fuck all else, it's my life. I hate the fucking feeling that I'm living in a prison my whole week.
And just in the very slim chance that church people are looking to get me a present, you guys can get me a PS3, an XBOX 360, an iPhone and a iPod Classic. With the number of people in church, I think that a personal contribution of twenty bucks would be just nice. Oh, remember to ask Uncle Bernard for his share too. But of course, I'm sure I haven't risen enough up the career ladder in IHM, only the "specially chosen" get their presents like a car pool.
On a more serious note, I don't think I'll get a PS3 for myself. Costing 600 bucks at the very minimum, that's a total of 60 packs of cigarettes. I think that's a good price to pay for not having to look like a beggar everytime I need to smoke.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, what a joke this is all becoming.
Happy Birthday, Emilie. (Yes, I know I'm late. I'm an awful human being, I'm sorry.)
Happy Birthday, Chris.
davvvvvvvid
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Yay. I just realised that most of my ex-girlfriends turned fugly after they broke up with me. This calls for a celebration. All hail the power of Facebook and Friendster.
davvvvvvvid
Thursday, November 01, 2007
FUCK.
davvvvvvvid
